Cybersex, Continued

Freedom to Explore

Cybersex allows people the freedom to explore sexuality. Archaic social mores don't apply online. Sexually transmitted diseases and unwanted pregnancies are not a problem. Losing one's "reputation" is not a factor either, given the anonymity the Net provides. We can act out the fantasies we'd never consider pursuing in the flesh. We can switch gender and gender preferences. By trying out various scenarios, people can explore their own preferences and inhibitions.

Calla is a woman whose sexuality blossomed with the freedom of the Net. In her own words she explains how this came about:

I had a webpage on AOL about me and what I like -- cows, Diet Coke, Barbie, Harley Davidsons, McDonalds -- just a silly page. It had some pictures of me that I'd update once in awhile. I heard about webcams and decided to use one for the page. People seemed to like seeing me, which really surprised me. I soon wanted to do more and people were writing, asking me to show more. AOL doesn't allow nudity, so a friend arranged for a server that let me go naked. I started loosening up and exposing my body and had a lot of fun. When it got expensive, I changed to a "member's only" format to pay the bills so I could keep doing it.

If you look back at the old shows it's funny to see how shy I was when I started. I had small pictures because I didn't want people to see me too closely. I didn't use toys. I'd never even seen a dildo or a vibrator. Then a fan sent me one and I really enjoyed it (so did my members). After a while I was able to make the pictures larger, and I eventually had oral sex and then intercourse on camera. I've become so uninhibited. It's exciting to know all those people are aroused by seeing me. I've made many new friends too. It's funny how people write me thinking I'm not real, that I'm a model or a porn star or part of a corporation. It really is just me and a membership company I hired to handle the credit cards. If you write me you get me. When you get a reply it's from me.

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